We have such a short time to realize egolessness, but searching for it is what
differentiates us from animals. Otherwise, what's the difference? Animals enjoy
the sense world and conduct their lives to the best of their ability. Just like
ourselves, they like those who feed them and dislike those who beat them, isn't
that so? What's the difference?
Perhaps you think, "Rubbish! I can intellectualize, I can write; I can
make money to support and enjoy my life." But even rats and mice can look
after themselves with ego and attachment. They can collect and store food many
times their own weight. Look at the bees: even though their lives are so short,
they collect enough honey to last for maybe hundreds of years. So, what
difference is there between bees and so-called intelligent humans if the mental
attitude is the same, where both are living only for sense pleasure? Perhaps
bees are even more intelligent than us-they live such short lives but still
accumulate vast amounts of what gives them pleasure.
Therefore, I think it's so worthwhile and so important that while we occupy
these precious human bodies, with all our intelligence and where everything has
come together, we use our ability to seek our inner nature and release
ourselves from all the problems of mental defilement, which come from our ego.
Everything we've done since the time we were born until now has come from our
ego, but it's all been so transitory and our pleasure has been so small.
But don't think, "Oh, I'm too bad; my mind is completely dominated by my
ego." Don't put yourself down. Instead, be happy to realize such things.
Realizing that only your own mind and effort can bring you release from your
ego is so worthwhile. For years and years, ages and ages, all you've done is
build up your ego, and under the influence of its hallucinated projection of
the sense world, you've run, run, run from one thing to another, as if you'd
lost your mind. So to now have just one flash of recognition of all this is
most worthwhile; it really is worth putting in the effort.
Don't think that without your own effort, without your own wisdom functioning,
you can stop the schizophrenic mental problems that result from the energy
force of your own ego. It's impossible.
Lama doesn't believe that he can solve your problems without your own effort
and action. That's a dream; if that's your attitude, it's a complete
misconception. "God can do everything for me; Buddha can do everything for
me. I'll just wait." That's not true! "I don't have to do anything."
That's not true! You did everything, now you have to experience the powerful
consequences. You can see now, with your own experience, can't you? Just one
meditation session is all it takes.
What Lama wants is for you to become a wise human being instead of one who is
dominated by the energy force of a super-sensitive ego. At the end of a
meditation course, I'd like you to be thinking, "Well, that was my own
meditation course, given by my own wisdom." If you feel like that, the
course was worthwhile. Otherwise, if you just go, "A high Tibetan lama
gave a meditation course; I went," it's just another ego trip. What's the
purpose? Your old habits, your schizophrenic mental attitudes haven't changed a
bit. So what meditation did you do? Lord Buddha is already enlightened; through
his own effort, with his own wisdom, he freed himself from his schizophrenic
mind, but here we are in a still agitated condition.
So you can see, realization is so individual. It depends upon each individual's
mind, effort and wisdom. Realization is so personal. From morning until night,
you all have different experiences, even though you're all trying to meditate
on the same thing-different experiences according to the individual level of
the individual mind.
If you think, "Oh, I have so much to do at home...my house, my family, my
friends...it's difficult to sit and meditate," it means your mind is
ensnared by the worldly life. You've been like that from the time you were born
until now, and if you keep going that way, you'll end up dying with
nothingness. How can you ever finish anything like that? Work in the
materialistic life continues to pile up, one thing after another, then another,
another, another, and you can never say, "Ah, at last I've finished
everything, now I can sit and meditate." That time will never come.
You can see, when your mind is occupied with ego energy, it's like constantly
having needles stuck into your body. That would be pretty uncomfortable,
wouldn't it! It's the same thing, exactly the same thing. So you can realize
how Important it is to release attachment and ego. When you do release them,
you will experience everlasting joyful realization, inner freedom, inner
liberation, nirvana...it doesn't matter what you call it. But instead, all we do
is try to please our ego; it's like we're praying to our ego. We dedicate all
our energy to our ego, and what we get in return is mental pollution; there's
such a bad smell in our minds that they can't even breathe.
So from now on, instead of welcoming your ego's energy force, stand guard
against it with mindfulness and wisdom, watching with penetrative attention for
the first sign of its arrival. And when it comes, instead of welcoming it,
"How are you, ego? Come right in! Have a cup of tea, have some
chocolate," examine it with a big wisdom eye, a wisdom eye bigger than
your head! Just watch it. When you give your ego the big wisdom eye, it
disappears, all by itself.