Now
determine in your mind to listen with respect to the Dhamma.
During the time that I am speaking, be as attentive to my words
as if it
were the Lord Buddha himself sitting in front of you. Close your
eyes
and make yourself comfortable, compose your mind and make it
one-pointed. Humbly allow the Triple Gem of wisdom, truth and
purity to
abide in your heart as a way of showing respect to the Fully
Enlightened
One.
Today I have
brought
nothing material of any substance to offer you, only Dhamma,
the
teachings of the Lord Buddha. Listen well. You should understand
that
even the Buddha himself, with his great store of accumulated
virtue,
could not avoid physical death. When he reached old age, he
relinquished
his body and let go of its heavy burden. Now you too must learn
to be
satisfied with the many years you've already depended on your
body. You
should feel that it's enough.
You can compare it
to
household utensils that you've had for a long time -- your cups,
saucers, plates and so on. When you first had them they were
clean and
shining, but now after using them for so long, they’re starting
to
wear out. Some are already broken, some have disappeared and
those that
are left are deteriorating; they have no stable form, and it's
their
nature to be like that. Your body is the same way -- it's been
continually changing right from the day you were born, through
childhood
and youth, until now it's reached old age. You must accept that.
The
Buddha said that conditions (sankhàras), whether they are
internal conditions, bodily conditions, or external conditions,
are
not-self, their nature is to change. Contemplate this truth
until you
see it clearly.
This very lump of
flesh
that lies here in decline is saccadhamma, the truth. The
truth of
this body is saccadhamma, and it is the unchanging
teaching of
the Buddha. The Buddha taught us to look at the body, to
contemplate it
and to come to terms with its nature. We must be able to be at
peace
with the body, whatever state it is in. The Buddha taught that
we should
ensure that it's only the body that is locked up in jail and not
let the
mind be imprisoned along with it. Now as your body begins to run
down
and deteriorate with age, don't resist that, but don't let your
mind
deteriorate with it. Keep the mind separate. Give energy to the
mind by
realizing the truth of the way things are. The Lord Buddha
taught that
this is the nature of the body, it can't be any other way:
having been
born it gets old and sick and then it dies. This is a great
truth that
you are presently encountering. Look at the body with wisdom and
realize
it.
Even if your house
is
flooded or burnt to the ground, whatever the danger that
threatens it,
let it concern only the house. If there's a flood, don't let it
flood
your mind. If there's a fire, don't let it burn your heart. Let
it be
merely the house, that which is external to you, that is flooded
and
burnt. Allow the mind to let go of its attachments. The time is
ripe.
You've been alive a
long
time. Your eyes have seen any number of forms and colours, Your
ears
have heard so many sounds, you’ve had any number of experiences.
And
that’s all they were -- just experiences. You’ve eaten de-
licious
foods and all the good tastes were just good tastes, nothing
more. The
unpleasant tastes were just unpleasant tastes, that's all. If
the eye
sees a beautiful form that’s all it is, just a beautiful form.
An ugly
form is just an ugly form. The ear hears an entrancing,
melodious sound
and it's nothing more than that. A grating, disharmonious sound
is
simply so.
The Buddha said
that rich
or poor, young or old, human or animal, no being in this world
can
maintain itself in any one state for long, everything
experiences change
and estrangement. This is a fact of life that we can do nothing
to
remedy. But the Buddha said that what we can do is to
contemplate the
body and mind so as to see their impersonality, see that neither
of them
is "me" or "mine." They have a merely provisional
reality. It's like this house, it's only nominally yours, you
couldn't
take it with you anywhere. It's the same with your wealth, your
possessions and your family -- they're all yours only in name,
they
don't really belong to you, they belong to nature. Now this
truth
doesn't apply to you alone; everyone is in the same position,
even the
Lord Buddha and his enlightened disciples. They differed from us
in only
one respect and that was in their acceptance of the way things
are; they
saw that it could be no other way. So the Buddha taught us to
scan and
examine this body from the soles of the feet up to the crown of
the head
and then back down to the feet again. Just take a look at the
body. What
sort of things do you see? Is there anything intrinsically clean
there?
Can you find any abiding essence? This whole body is steadily
degenerating and the Buddha taught us to see that it doesn't
belong to
us. It's natural for the body to be this way, because all
conditioned
phenomena are subject to change. How else would you have it be?
Actually
there's nothing wrong with the way the body is. It is not the
body that
causes you suffering, it's your wrong thinking. When you see the
right
wrongly, there's bound to be confusion.
It's like the water
of a
river. It naturally flows down the gradient, it never flows
against it;
that's its nature. If a person were to go and stand on a river
bank, and
seeing the water flowing swiftly down its course, foolishly want
it to
flow back up the gradient, he would suffer. Whatever he was
doing his
wrong thinking would allow him no peace of mind. He would be
unhappy
because of his wrong view, thinking against the stream. If he
had right
view he would see that the water must inevitably flow down the
gradient,
and until he realized and accepted that fact the man would be
agitated
and upset.
The river that must
flow
down the gradient is like your body. Having been young, your
body has
become old and now it's meandering towards its death. Don't go
wishing
it was otherwise, it's not something you have the power to
remedy. The
Buddha told us to see the way things are and then let go of our
clinging
to them. Take this feeling of letting go as your refuge.
Keep meditating
even if you
feel tired and exhausted. Let your mind dwell with the breath.
Take a
few deep breaths, then establish the mind on the breath using
the mantra
"Buddho." Make this practice habitual. The more
exhausted you feel, the more subtle and focused your
concentration must
be, so that you can cope with the painful sensations that arise.
When
you start to feel fatigued then bring all your thinking to a
halt, let
the mind gather itself together and then turn to knowing the
breath.
Just keep up the inner recitation "Bud-dho, Bud-dho."
Let go of all
externals.
Don't go grasping at thoughts of your children and relatives,
don't
grasp at anything whatsoever. Let go. Let the mind unite in a
single
point and let that composed mind dwell with the breath. Let the
breath
be its sole object of knowledge. Concentrate until the mind
becomes
increasingly subtle, until feelings are insignificant and there
is great
inner clarity and wakefulness. Then when painful sensations
arise they
will gradually cease of their own accord. Finally you’ll look on
the
breath as if it was a relative come to visit you.
When a relative
leaves we
follow him out and see him off. We watch until he's walked or
driven out
of sight and then we go back indoors. We watch the breath in the
same
way. If the breath is coarse we know that it’s coarse, if it's
subtle
we know that it’s subtle. As it becomes increasingly fine we
keep
following it while simultaneously awakening the mind. Eventually
the
breath disappears altogether and all that remains is the feeling
of
wakefulness This is called meeting the Buddha. We have that
clear
wakeful awareness that is called "Buddho," the one who
knows, the one who is awake, the radiant one. It is meeting and
dwelling
with the Buddha, with knowledge and clarity. For it was only the
historical flesh-and-blood Buddha that entered parinibbàna; the
true
Buddha, the Buddha that is clear radiant knowing, we can still
experience and attain today, and when we do so the heart is one.
So let go, put
everything
down, everything except the knowing. Don't be fooled if visions
or
sounds arise in your mind during meditation. Put them all down.
Don't
take hold of anything at all. Just stay with this non-dual
awareness.
Don't worry about the past or the future, just be still and you
will
reach the place where there's no advancing, no retreating and no
stopping, where there's nothing to grasp at or cling to. Why?
Because
there's no self, no "me'' or "mine." It's all gone. The
Buddha taught us to be emptied of everything in this way, not to
carry
anything with us. To know, and having known, let go.
Realizing the
Dhamma, the
path to freedom from the round of birth and death, is a job that
we all
have to do alone. So keep trying to let go and to understand the
teachings. Really put effort into your contemplation. Don’t
worry
about your family. At the moment they are as they are, in the
future
they will be like you. There‘s no one in the world who can
escape this
fate. The Buddha told us to put down everything that lacks a
real
abiding substance. If you put everything down you will see the
truth, if
you don't you won’t. That's the way it is and it's the same for
all,
so don’t worry or grasp at anything.
Even if you find
yourself
thinking, well that’s all right too, as long as you think
wisely.
Don't think foolishly. If you think of your children think of
them with
wisdom, not with foolishness. Whatever the mind turns to, then
think and
know that thing with wisdom, aware of its nature.
If you know
something with
wisdom then you let it go and there's no suffering. The mind is
bright,
joyful and at peace, and turning away from distractions it is
undivided.
Right now what you can look to for help and support is your
breath.
This is your own
work,
nobody else's. Leave others to do their own work. You have your
own duty
and responsibility and you don't have to take on those of your
family.
Don't take anything else on, let it all go. That letting go will
make
your mind calm. Your sole responsibility right now is to focus
your mind
and bring it to peace. Leave everything else to others. Forms,
sounds,
odours, tastes -- leave them to others to attend to. Put
everything
behind you and do your own work, fulfill your own
responsibility.
Whatever arises in your mind, be it fear of pain, fear of death,
anxiety
about others or whatever, say to it: "Don't disturb me. You’re
not my business any more." Just keep saying this to yourself
when
you see those dhammas arise.
What does the word "dhamma"
refer to? Everything is a dhamma. There is nothing that
is not
dhamma. And what about "worlds"? The world is the very
mental state that is agitating you at this moment. "What will
this
person do? What will that person do? When I'm dead who will look
after
them? How will they manage? "This is all just "the
world." Even the mere arising of a thought fearing death or pain
is
the world. Throw the world away! The world is the way it is. If
you
allow it to arise in the mind and dominate consciousness, then
the mind
becomes obscured and can't see itself. So whatever appears in
the mind
just say: "This isn’t my business. It's impermanent,
unsatisfactory and not-self."
Thinking you’d like
to go
on living for a long time will make you suffer. But thinking
you'd like
to die right away or die very quickly isn't right either;
it's
suffering, isn't it? Conditions don't belong to us, they follow
their
own natural laws. You can't do anything about the way the body
is. You can
prettify it a
little, make it look attractive and clean for a while, like the
young
girls who paint their lips and let their nails grow long, but
when old
age arrives, everyone’s in the same boat. That's the way the
body is,
you can't make it any other way. But what you can improve and
beautify
is the mind.
Anyone can build a
house of
wood and bricks, but the Buddha taught that that sort of home is
not our
real home, it's only nominally ours, it's a home in the world
and it
follows the ways of the world. Our real home is inner
peace.
An external material home may well be pretty but it is not very
peaceful. There's this worry and then that, this anxiety and
then that.
So we say it's not our real home; it's external to us, sooner or
later
we'll have to give it up. It's not a place we can live in
permanently
because it doesn't truly belong to us, it's part of the world.
Our body
is the same; we take it to be self, to be "me" and
"mine," but in fact it's not really so at all, it's another
worldly home. Your body has followed its natural course from
birth until
now it's old and sick and you can't forbid it from doing that,
that's
the way it is. Wanting it to be different would be as foolish as
wanting
a duck to be like a chicken. When you see that that's
impossible, that a
duck has to be a duck, that a chicken has to be a chicken and
that
bodies have to get old and die, you will find strength and
energy.
However much you want the body to go on and last for a long
time, it
won't do that.
The Buddha said:
Aniccà
vata sankhàra
Uppàdavayadhammino
Uppajjitvà nìrujjhanti
Tesam vùpasamo sukho.
"Conditions are
impermanent,
subject to rise and fall.
Having arisen they cease --
their stilling is bliss."
The word "sankhàra"
refers to this body and mind. Sankhàras are impermanent
and
unstable, having come into being they disappear having arisen
they pass
away and yet everyone wants them to, be permanent. This is
foolishness.
Look at the breath. Having come in it goes out; that's its
natures,
that's how it has to be. The inhalation and exhalation have to
alternate, there must be change. Sankhàras exist through
change.
You can’t prevent it. Just think: could you exhale without
inhaling?
Would it feel good? Or could you just inhale? We want things to
be
permanent but they can't be, it’s impossible. Once the
breath
has come in, it must go out, when it's gone out it comes
in
again, and that’s natural, isn't it? Having been born we get old
and
sick and then we die, and that’s totally natural and normal.
It's
because sankhàras have done their job, because the
in-breaths
and out breaths have alternated in this way that the human race
is still
here today.
As soon as we're
born we're
dead. Our birth and our death are just one thing. It’s like
a
tree: when there's a root there must be twigs. When there are
twigs
there must be a root. You can't have one without the other. It's
a
little funny to see how at a death people are so grief-stricken
and
distracted, tearful and sad, and at a birth how happy and
delighted.
It's delusion, nobody has ever looked at this clearly. I think
if you
really want to cry then it would be better to do so when
someone's born.
For actually birth is death, death is birth, the root is the
twig, the
twig is the root. If you've got to cry, cry at the root, cry at
the
birth. Look closely: if there was no birth there would be no
death. Can
you understand this?
Don't think a lot.
Just
think "this is the way things are." It’s your work, your
duty. Right now nobody can help you, there's nothing that your
family
and your possessions can do for you. All that can help you now
is the
correct awareness.
So don't waver. Let
go.
Throw it all away.
Even if you don't
let go,
everything is starting to leave anyway. Can you see that, how
all the
different parts of your body are trying to slip away? Take your
hair:
when you were young it was thick and black, now it's falling
out. It's
leaving. Your eyes used to be good and strong and now they're
weak and
your sight is unclear. When the organs have had enough they
leave, this
isn't their home. When you were a child your teeth were healthy
and
firm, now they're wobbly, perhaps you've got false ones. Your
eyes,
ears, nose, tongue -- everything is trying to leave because this
isn't
their home. You can't make a permanent home in a sankhàra,
you
can stay for a short while and then you have to go. It’s like a
tenant
watching over his tiny little house with failing eyes. His teeth
aren’t
so good, his ears aren't so good, his body’s not so healthy,
everything is leaving.
So you needn't
worry about
any thing because this isn’t your real home, it's just a
temporary
shelter. Having come into this world you should contemplate its
nature.
Everything there is, is preparing to disappear. Look at your
body. Is
there anything there that's still in its. your original form? Is
your
skin as it used to be? Is your hair? It's not the same, is it?
Where has
everything gone? This is nature, the way things are. When their
time is
up, conditions go their way. This world is nothing to rely on --
it's an
endless round of disturbance and troubles, pleasures and pains.
There’s
no peace.
When we have no
real home
we’re like an aimless traveler out on the road, going this way
for a
while and then that ways stopping for a while and then setting
off
again. Until we return to our real home we feel ill-at-ease
whatever we’re
doing, just like one who’s left his village to go on a journey.
Only
when he gets home again can he really relax and be at ease.
Nowhere in the
world is any
real peace to be found. The poor have no peace and neither do
the rich.
Adults have no peace, children have no peace, the poorly
educated have
no peace and neither do the highly-educated. There's no peace
anywhere.
That's the nature of the world.
Those who have few
possessions suffer and so do those who have many. Children,
adults, the
aged, everyone suffers. The suffering of being old, the
suffering of
being young, the suffering of being wealthy and the suffering of
being
poor -- it's all nothing but suffering.
When you've
contemplated
things in this way you'll see anicca, impermanence, and dukkha,
unsatisfactoriness. Why are things impermanent and
unsatisfactory? It’s
because they're anattà, not-self.
Both your body that
is
lying here sick and painful, and the mind that is aware of its
sickness
and pain, are called dhammas. That which is formless, the
thoughts, feelings and perceptions, is called nàmadhamma.
That
which is racked with aches and pains is called rùpadhamma.
The
material is dhamma and the immaterial is dhamma.
So we
live with dhammas, in dhammas, we are dhammas.
In
truth there's no self anywhere to be found, there are only dhammas
continually arising and passing away, as is their nature. Every
single
moment we're undergoing birth and death. This is the way things
are.
When we think of
the Lord
Buddha, how truly he spoke, we feel how worthy he is of
salutation,
reverence and respect. Whenever we see the truth of something we
see his
teachings, even if we've never actually practised Dhamma.
But
even if we have a knowledge of the teachings, have studied and
practised
them, but still haven't seen their truth, then we're still
homeless.
So understand this
point
that all people, all creatures, are about to leave. When beings
have
lived an appropriate time they go their way. The rich, the poor,
the
young, the old, all beings must experience this change.
When you realize
that
that's the way the world is, you'll feel that it's a wearisome
place.
When you see that there's nothing stable or substantial you can
rely on,
you'll feel wearied and disenchanted. Being disenchanted doesn't
mean
you're averse though. The mind is clear. It sees that there's
nothing to
be done to remedy this state of affairs, it's just the way the
world is.
Knowing in this way, you can let go of attachment, let go with a
mind
that is neither happy nor sad, but at peace with sankhàras
through seeing with wisdom their changing nature.
Aniccà vata
sankhàra
-- all sankhàras are impermanent. To put it simply:
impermanence
is the Buddha. If we see an impermanent phenomena really
clearly, we'll
see that it's permanent, permanent in the sense that it’s
subjection
to change is unchanging. This is the permanence that
living
beings possess. There is continual transformation, from
childhood
through youth to old age, and that very imper-manence, that
nature to
change, is permanent and fixed. If you look at it like that your
heart
will be at ease. It's not just you that has to go through this,
it's
everyone.
When you consider
things
thus you'll see them as wearisome, and disenchantment will
arise. Your
delight in the world of sense pleasures will disappear. You'll
see that
if you have a lot of things, you have to leave a lot
behind; if
you have few, you leave behind few. Wealth is just
wealth, long
life is just long life, they're nothing special.
What's important is
that we
should do as the Lord Buddha taught and build our own home,
building it
by the method that I've been explaining to you. Build your home.
Let go.
Let go until the mind reaches the peace that is free from
advancing,
free from retreating and free from stopping still. Pleasure is
not our
home, pain is not our home. Pleasure and pain both decline and
pass away.
The Great Teacher
saw that
all are impermanent and so he taught us to let go of our
attachment to them. When we reach the end of our
life, we’ll
have no choice anyway, we won't be able to take anything with
us. So
wouldn't it be better to put things down before that? They're
just a
heavy burden to carry around; why not throw off that load now?
Why
bother to drag them around? Let go, relax, and let your family
look
after you.
Those who nurse the
sick
grow in goodness and virtue. 0ne who is sick and giving others
that
opportunity shouldn't make things difficult for them. If there's
a pain
or some problem or other let them know and keep the mind in a
wholesome
state. One who is nursing parents should fill his or her mind
with
warmth and kindness, not get caught in aversion. This is the one
time
when you can repay the debt you owe them. From your birth
through your
childhood, as you've grown up, you’ve been dependent on your
parents.
That we are here today is because our mothers and father have
helped us
in so many ways. We owe them an incredible debt of
gratitude. So
today, all of you children and relatives gathered here together,
see how
your parents become your children. Before you were their
children, now
they becomes yours. They become older and older until they
become
children again. Their memories go, their eyes don't see so well
and
their ears don't hear, sometimes they garble their words. Don't
let it
upset you. All of you nursing the sick must know how to let go.
Don't
hold onto things, just let go and let them have their own way.
When a
young child is disobedient sometimes the parents let it have its
own way
just to keep the peace, to make it happy. Now your parents are
like that
child. Their memories and perceptions are confused. Sometimes
they
muddle up your names or you ask them to give you a cup and they
bring a
plate. It's normal, don't be upset by it.
Let the patient
remember
the kindness of those who nurse and patiently endure the painful
feelings. Exert yourself mentally, don't let the mind become
scattered
and agitated, and don't make things difficult for those looking
after
you. Let those who nurse the sick fill their minds with virtue
and
kindness. Don't be averse to the unattractive side of the job,
to
cleaning up mucus and phlegm, or urine and excrement. Try your
best.
Everyone in the family give a hand.
These are the only
parents
you've got. They gave you life, they have been your teachers,
your
nurses and your doctors – they’ve been everything to you. That
they
have brought you up, taught you, shared their wealth with you
and made
you their heirs is the great beneficence of parents.
Consequently the
Buddha taught the virtues of katannu and katavedi,
of
knowing our debt of gratitude and of trying to repay it. These
two
virtues are complementary. If our parents are in need, if
they're unwell
or in difficulty, then we do our best to help them. This is katannu-katavedi;
it is a virtue that sustains the world. It prevents families
from
breaking up, it makes them stable and harmonious.
* * *
Today I have
brought you
the Dhamma as a gift in this time of illness. I have no
material
things to give you; there seem to be plenty of those in the
house
already, and so I give you Dhamma, something which has a
lasting
worth, something which you'll never be able to exhaust. Having
received
it from me you can pass it on to as many others as you like and
it will
never be depleted. That is the nature of Truth. I am happy to
have been
able to give you this gift of Dhamma and hope it will
give you
strength to deal with your pain.
Ajahn
Chah was born into a large and comfortable family in a rural
village in
Northeast Thailand. He ordained as a novice in early youth and
on
reaching the age of twenty took higher ordination as a monk. As a
young
monk he studied some basic Dhamma, Discipline and scriptures.
Later he
practised meditation under the guidance of several of the local
meditation masters in the ascetic forest tradition. He wandered
for a
number of years in the style of an ascetic monk, sleeping in
forests,
caves and cremation grounds, and spent a short but enlightening
period
with Ajahn Mun, one of the most famous and respected Thai
meditation
masters of this century.
After many years of
travel
and practice, he was invited to settle in a thick forest grove
near the
village of his birth. This grove was uninhabited, known as a
place of
cobras, tigers and ghosts, thus being, as he said, the perfect
location
for a forest monk. Around Ajahn Chah a large monastery formed as
more
and more monks, nuns and lay people came to hear his teachings
and stay
on to practise with him. Now there are more than forty mountain
and
forest branch temples throughout Thailand and in England and
Australia
as well.
On entering Wat Pah
Pong
one is likely to encounter monks drawing water from a well, and a
sign
on the path that says: "You there, be quiet! We're trying to
meditate." Although there is a group meditation twice a day, the
heart of the meditation is the way of life. Monks do manual
work, dye
and sew their own robes, make most of their own requisites and
keep the
monastery buildings and grounds in immaculate shape. Monks here
live
extremely simply following the ascetic precepts of eating once a
day
from the almsbowl and limiting their possessions and robes.
Scattered
throughout the forest are individual huts where monks live and
meditate
in solitude, and where they practise walking meditation on
cleared paths
under the trees.
Discipline is
extremely
strict enabling one to lead a simple and pure life in a
harmoniously
regulated community where virtue, meditation and understanding
may be
skillfully and continuously cultivated.
Ajahn Chah's simple
yet
profound style of teaching has a special appeal to Westerners,
and many
have come to study and practise with him, quite a few for many
years. In
1975 Wat Pah Nanachat was established near Wat Pah Pong as a
special
training monastery for the growing number of Westerners
interested in
undertaking monastic training. Since then Ajahn Chah's large
following
of senior Western disciples has begun the work of spreading the
Dhamma
in the West. Ajahn Chah has himself travelled twice to Europe
and North
America, and he has established a thriving branch monastery in
Sussex,
England.
Wisdom is a way of
living
and being, and Ajahn Chah has endeavoured to preserve the simple
lifestyle of the monks in order that people may study and
practise
Dhamma in the present day.
Ajahn Chah's
wonderfully
simple style of teaching can be deceptive. It is often only
after one
has heard something from him many times that suddenly one's mind
is ripe
and somehow the teaching takes on a much deeper meaning. His
skillful
means in tailoring his explanations of Dhamma to time and place,
and to
the understanding and sensitivity of his audience, is marvellous
to see.
Sometimes on paper, though, it can make him seem inconsistent or
even
self-contradictory! At such times the reader should remember
that these
words are a record of living experience. Similarly, if the
teaching may
seem to vary at times from tradition, it should be borne in mind
that
the venerable Ajahn speaks always from the heart, from the
depths of his
own meditative experience.
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