The Basic Method of Meditation
Ajahn Brahmavamso
(Edited from a talk given by Ajahn Brahmavamso during a
9-day retreat
in North Perth, Western Australia, December 1997)
August 2003 Edition
Contents
Part 1
* Sustained attention on the present moment
Part 2
* Silent awareness of the present moment
* Silent present momemt awareness of the breath
* Full sustained attention on the breath
Part 3
- Full
sustained attention on the beautiful breath
* Experiencing the beautiful Nimitta
* First Jhāna
NAMO
TASSA BHAGAVATO ARAHATO SAMMASAMBUDDHASSA
Part 1
"The goal of this
meditation is the beautiful silence, stillness and clarity of mind"
Meditation is the way to
achieve letting go. In meditation one lets go of the complex world outside in
order to reach the serene world inside. In all types of mysticism, in many
traditions, this is known as the path to the pure and powerful mind. The
experience of this pure mind, released from the world, is very wonderful and
blissful.
Often with meditation, there
will be some hard work at the beginning, but be willing to bear that hard work
knowing that it will lead you to experience some very beautiful and meaningful
states. They will be well worth the effort! It is a law of nature that without
effort one does not make progress. Whether one is a layperson or a monk,
without effort one gets nowhere, in meditation or in anything.
Effort alone, though, is not
sufficient. The effort needs to be skilful. This means directing your energy
just at the right places and sustaining it there until its task is completed.
Skilful effort neither hinders nor disturbs you, instead it produces the
beautiful peace of deep meditation.
In order to know where your
effort should be directed, you must have a clear understanding of the goal of
meditation. The goal of this meditation is the beautiful silence, stillness and
clarity of mind. If you can understand that goal then the place to apply your
effort, the means to achieve the goal become very clear.
The effort is directed to
letting go, to developing a mind that inclines to abandoning. One of the many
simple but profound statements of the Lord Buddha is that "a meditator
whose mind inclines to abandoning, easily achieves Samādhi". Such a
meditator gains these states of inner bliss almost automatically. What the Lord
Buddha was saying was that the major cause for attaining deep meditation, for
reaching these powerful states, is the willingness to abandon, to let go and to
renounce.
During meditation, we are not
going to develop a mind which accumulates and holds on to things, but instead
we develop a mind which is willing to let go of things, to let go of burdens.
Outside of meditation we have to carry the burden of our many duties, like so
many heavy suitcases, but within the period of meditation so much baggage is
unnecessary. So, in meditation, see much baggage you can unload. Think of these
things as burdens, heavy weights pressing upon you. Then you have the right
attitude for letting go of these things, abandoning them freely without looking
back. This effort, this attitude, this movement of mind that inclines to giving
up, is what will lead you into deep meditation. Even
during the beginning stages of this meditation, see if you can generate the
energy of renunciation, the willingness to give things away, and little by
little the letting go will occur. As you give things away in your mind you will
feel much lighter, unburdened and free. In the way of meditation, this abandoning
of things occurs in stages, step by step.
You may go through the initial
stages quickly if you wish, but be very careful if you so do. Sometimes, when
you pass through the initial steps too quickly, you find that preparatory work
has not been completed. It is like trying to build a town house on a very weak
and rushed foundation. The structure goes up very quickly, but it comes down
very quickly as well! So you are wise to spend a lot of time on the
foundations, and on the "first storey" as well, making the groundwork
well done, strong and firm. Then when you proceed to the higher storeys, the
bliss states of meditation, they too are stable and firm.
In the way that I teach
meditation, I like to begin at the very simple stage of giving up the baggage
of past and future. Sometimes you may think that this is such an easy thing to
do, that it is too basic. However, if you give it your full effort, not running
ahead to the higher stages of meditation until you have properly reached the
first goal of sustained attention on the present moment, then you
will find later on that you have established a very strong foundation on which
to build the higher stages.
Abandoning the past means not
even thinking about your work, your family, your commitments, your responsibilities,
your history, the good or bad times you had as a child..., you abandon all
past experiences by showing no interest in them at all. You become someone who
has no history during the time that you meditate. You do not even think about
where you are from, where you were born, who your parents were or what your
upbringing was like. All of that history is renounced in meditation. In this
way, everyone here on the retreat becomes equal, just a meditator. It becomes
unimportant how many years you have been meditating, whether you are an old
hand or a beginner. If you abandon all that history, then, we are all equal and
free. We are freeing ourselves of some of these concerns, perceptions and
thoughts which limit us and which stop us from developing the peace born of
letting go. So every "part" of your history you finally let go of,
even the history of what has happened to you so far in this retreat, even the
memory of what happened to you just a moment ago! In this way, you carry no
burden from the past into the present. Whatever has just happened, you are no
longer interested in it and you let it go. You do not allow the past to
reverberate in your mind.
I describe this as developing
your mind like a padded cell! When any experience, perception or thought hits
the wall of the "padded cell", it does not bounce back again. It just
sinks into the padding and stops right there. Thus we do not allow the past to
echo in our consciousness, certainly not the past of yesterday and all that
time before, because we are developing the mind inclined to letting go, giving
away and unburdening.
Some people have the view that
if they take up the past for contemplation they can somehow learn from it and
solve the problems of the past. However, you should understand that when you
gaze at the past, you invariably look through distorted lenses. Whatever you
think it was like, in truth it was not quite like that! This is why people have
arguments about what actually happened, even a few moments ago. It is well
known to police who investigate traffic accidents that even though the accident
may have happened only half an hour ago, two different eyewitnesses, both
completely honest, will give different accounts. Our memory is untrustworthy.
If you consider just how unreliable memory is, then you do not put value on
thinking over the past. Then you can let it go. You can bury it, just as you
bury a person who has died. You place them in a coffin then bury it, or cremate
it, and it is done with, finished. Do not linger on the past. Do not continue
to carry the coffins of dead moments on your head! If you do, then you are
weighing yourself down with heavy burdens which do not really belong to you.
Let all of the past go and you have the ability to be free in the present
moment.
As for the future, the
anticipations, fears, plans, and expectations -- let all of that go too. The
Lord Buddha once said about the future "whatever you think it will be, it
will always be something different"! This future is known to the wise as
uncertain, unknown and so unpredictable. It is often complete stupidity to
anticipate the future, and always a great waste of your time to think of the
future in meditation.
When you work with your mind,
you find that the mind is so strange. It can do some wonderful and unexpected
things. It is very common for meditators who are having a difficult time, who
are not getting very peaceful, to sit there thinking "Here we go again,
another hour of frustration". Even though they begin thinking like that,
anticipating failure, something strange happens and they get into a very
peaceful meditation.
Recently I heard of one man on
his first ten day retreat. After the first day his body was hurting so much he
asked to go home. The teacher said "Stay one more day and the pain will
disappear, I promise". So he stayed another day, the pain got worse so he
wanted to go home again. The teacher repeated "just one more day, the pain
will go". He stayed for a third day and the pain was even worse. For each
of nine days, in the evening he would go to the teacher and, in great pain, ask
to go home and the teacher would say, "just one more day and the pain will
disappear". It went completely beyond his expectations that, on the final
day, when he started the first sit of the morning, the pain did disappear! It
did not come back. He could sit for long periods with no pain at all! He was
amazed at how wonderful is this mind and how it can produce such unexpected
results. So, you don't know about the future. It can be so strange, even weird,
completely beyond whatever you expect. Experiences like this give you the
wisdom and courage to abandon all thoughts about the future, and all
expectation as well.
When you're meditating and
thinking "How many more minutes are there to go? How much longer have I to
endure all of this?" then that is just wandering off into the future
again. The pain could just disappear in a moment. The next moment might be the
free one. You just cannot anticipate what is going to happen.
When on retreat, you have been
meditating for many sessions, you may sometimes think that none of those
meditations have been any good. In the next meditation session you sit down and
everything becomes so peaceful and easy. You think "Wow! Now I can
meditate!", but the next meditation is awful again. What's going on here?
The first meditation teacher I
had told me something which then sounded quite strange. He said that there is
no such thing as a bad meditation! He was right. All those meditations which
you called bad, frustrating and not meeting your expectations, all those
meditations are where you do the hard work for your "pay cheque"...
It is like a person who goes to
work all day Monday and gets no money at the end of the day. "What am I
doing this for?", he thinks. He works all day Tuesday and still gets
nothing. Another bad day. All day Wednesday, all day Thursday, and still
nothing to show for all the hard work. That's four bad days in a row. Then
along comes Friday, he does exactly the same work as before and at the end of
the day the boss gives him a pay cheque. "Wow! Why can't every day be a
pay-day?!"
Why can't every meditation be
"pay-day"? Now, do you understand the simile? It is in the difficult
meditations that you build up your credit, you build up the causes for success.
Working for peace in the hard meditations, you build up your strength, the
momentum for peace. Then when there's enough credit of good qualities, the mind
goes into a good meditation and it feels like "pay-day". It is in the
bad meditations that you do the work.
In a recent retreat that I gave
in Sydney,
during interview time, a lady told me that she had been angry with me all day,
but for two different reasons. In her early meditations she was having a
difficult time and was angry at me for not ringing the bell to end the
meditation early enough. In the later meditations she got into a beautiful
peaceful state and was angry at me for ringing the bell too soon. The sessions
were all the same length, exactly one hour. You just can't win as a teacher,
ringing the bell!
This is what happens when you go
anticipating the future, thinking "How many more minutes until the bell
goes?" That is where you torture yourself, where you pick up a heavy
burden which is none of your business. So be very careful not to pick up the
heavy suitcase of "How many more minutes are there to go?" or
"What should I do next?" If that is what you are thinking, then you
are not paying attention to what is happening now. You are not doing the
meditation. You have lost the plot and are asking for trouble.
In this stage of the meditation
keep your attention right in the present moment, to the point where you don't
even know what day it is or what time it is -- morning? afternoon? -- don't
know! All you know is what moment it is -- right now! In this way you arrive at
this beautiful monastic time scale where you are just meditating in the moment,
not aware of how many minutes have gone or how many remain, not even
remembering what day it is.
Once, as a young monk in Thailand,
I had actually forgotten what year it was! It is marvelous living in that realm
that is timeless, a realm so much more free than the time driven world we
usually have to live in. In the timeless realm, you experience this moment,
just as all wise beings have been experiencing this same moment for thousands
of years. It has always been just like this, no different. You have come into
the reality of "now".
The reality of now is
magnificent and awesome. When you have abandoned all past and all future, it is
as if you have come alive. You are here, you are mindful. This is the first
stage of the meditation, just this mindfulness sustained only in the present.
Reaching here, you have done a great deal. You have let go of the first burden
which stops deep meditation. So put forth a lot of effort to reach this first
stage until it is strong, firm and well established. Next, we will refine the
present moment awareness into the second stage of the meditation -- silent
awareness of the present moment. [^]
Part 2
"Silence is so much more
productive of wisdom and clarity than thinking."
In Part 1 of this
three-part article, I outlined the goal of this meditation, which is the
beautiful silence, stillness and clarity of mind, pregnant with the most
profound of insights. Then I pointed out the underlying theme which runs like
an unbroken thread throughout all meditation, that is the letting go of
material and mental burdens. Lastly, in Part 1, I described at length the
practice which leads to what I call the first stage of this meditation, and
that first stage is attained when the meditator comfortably abides in the
present moment for long, unbroken periods of time. As I wrote in the previous
article "The reality of now is magnificent and awesome... Reaching here
you have done a great deal. You have let go of the first burden which stops
deep meditation." But having achieved so much, one should go further into
the even more beautiful and truthful silence of the mind.
It is helpful, here, to clarify
the difference between silent awareness of the present moment and thinking
about it. The simile of watching a tennis match on TV is informative. When
watching such a match, you may notice that, in fact, there are two matches
occurring simultaneously -- there is the match that you see on the screen, and
there is the match that you hear described by the commentator. Indeed, if an
Australian is playing a New Zealander, then the commentary from the Australian
presenter or New Zealander presenter is likely to be much different from what
actually occurred! Commentary is often biased. In this simile, watching the
screen with no commentary stands for silent awareness in meditation, paying
attention to the commentary stands for thinking about it. You should realize
that you are much closer to Truth when you observe without commentary, when you
experience just the silent awareness of the present moment.
Sometimes it is through the
inner commentary that we think we know the world. Actually, that inner speech
does not know the world at all! It is the inner speech that weaves the
delusions that cause suffering. It is the inner speech that causes us to be
angry at those we make our enemies, and to have dangerous attachments to those
we make our loved ones. Inner speech causes all of life's problems. It
constructs fear and guilt. It creates anxiety and depression. It builds these
illusions as surely as the skilful commentator on TV can manipulate an audience
to create anger or tears. So if you seek for Truth, you should value silent
awareness, considering it more important, when meditating, than any thought
whatsoever.
It is the high value that one
gives to one's thoughts that is the major obstacle to silent awareness.
Carefully removing the importance one gives to one's thinking and realizing the
value and truthfulness of silent awareness is the insight that makes this
second stage -- silent awareness of the present moment -- possible.
One of the beautiful ways of
overcoming the inner commentary is to develop such refined present moment
awareness, that you are watching every moment so closely that you simply do not
have the time to comment about what has just happened. A thought is often an
opinion on what has just happened, e.g. "That was
good", "That was gross", "What was
that?" All of these comments are about an experience which has just passed
by. When you are noting, making a comment about an experience which has just
passed, then you are not paying attention to the experience which has just
arrived. You are dealing with old visitors and neglecting the new visitors
coming now!
You may imagine your mind to be
a host at a party, meeting the guests as they come in the door. If one guest
comes in and you meet them and start talking to them about this that or the
other, then you are not doing your duty of paying attention to the new guest
that comes in the door. Because a guest comes in the door every moment, all you
can do is to greet one and then immediately go on to greet the next one. You
cannot afford to engage in even the shortest conversation with any guest, since
this would mean you will miss the one coming in next. In meditation, all
experiences come through the door of our senses into the mind one by one in
succession. If you greet one experience with mindfulness and then get into
conversation with your guest, then you will miss the next experience following
right behind.
When you are perfectly in the
moment with every experience, with every guest which comes in your mind, then
you just do not have the space for inner speech. You can not chatter to
yourself because you are completely taken up with mindfully greeting everything
just as it arrives in your mind. This is refined present moment awareness to
the level that it becomes silent awareness of the present in every moment.
You discover, on developing that
degree of inner silence, that this is like giving up another great burden. It
is as if you have been carrying a big heavy rucksack on your back for forty or
fifty years continuously and during that time you have wearily trudged through
many many miles. Now you have had the courage and found the wisdom to take that
rucksack off and put it on the ground for a while. One feels so immensely
relieved, so light, so free because one is now not burdened with that heavy
rucksack of inner chatter.
Another useful method of
developing silent awareness is to recognize the space between thoughts, between
periods of inner chatter. If you attend closely with sharp mindfulness, when
one thought ends and before another thought begins -- There! That is silent
awareness! It may be only momentary at first, but as you recognize that
fleeting silence you become accustomed to it, and as you become accustomed to
it then the silence lasts longer. You begin to enjoy the silence, once you have
found it at last, and that is why it grows. But remember, silence is shy. If
silence hears you talking about her, she vanishes immediately!
It would be marvelous for each
one of us if we could abandon the inner speech and abide in silent awareness of
the present moment long enough to realize how delightful it is. Silence is so
much more productive of wisdom and clarity than thinking. When you realize how
much more enjoyable and valuable it is to be silent within, then silence
becomes more attractive and important to you. The Inner Silence becomes what
the mind inclines towards. The mind seeks out silence constantly, to the point
where it only thinks if it really has to, only if there is some point to it.
Since, at this stage, you have realized that most of our thinking is really
pointless anyway, that it gets you nowhere, only giving you many headaches, you
gladly and easily spend much time in inner quiet.
The second stage of this
meditation, then, is silent awareness of the present moment. You
may spend the majority of your time just developing these two stages because if
you can get this far then you have gone a long way indeed in your meditation.
In that silent awareness of "Just Now" you will experience much
peace, joy and consequent wisdom.
If you want to go further, then
instead of being silently aware of whatever comes into the mind, you choose
silent present moment awareness of just ONE THING. That ONE THING can be the
experience of breathing, the idea of loving kindness (Mettā), a coloured circle
visualised in the mind (Kasina) or several other, less common, focal points for
awareness. Here we will describe the silent present moment awareness of
the breath.
Choosing to fix one's attention
on one thing is letting go of diversity and moving to its opposite, unity. As
the mind begins to unify, sustaining attention on just one thing, the
experience of peace, bliss and power increases significantly. You discover here
that the diversity of consciousness, attending to six different senses -- like
having six telephones on one's desk ringing at the same time -- is such a burden.
Letting go of this diversity -- only permitting one telephone, a private line
at that, on one's desk -- is such a relief it generates bliss. The
understanding that diversity is a burden is crucial to being able to settle on
the breath.
If you have developed silent
awareness of the present moment carefully for long periods of time, then you
will find it quite easy to turn that awareness on to the breath and follow that
breath from moment to moment without interruption. This is because the two
major obstacles to breath meditation have already been subdued. The first of
these two obstacles is the mind's tendency to go off into the past or future,
and the second obstacle is the inner speech. This is why I teach the two
preliminary stages of present moment awareness and silent awareness of the
present moment as a solid preparation for deeper meditation on the breath.
It often happens that meditators
start breath meditation when their mind is still jumping around between past
and future, and when awareness is being drowned by the inner commentary. With
no preparation they find breath meditation so difficult, even impossible and
give up in frustration. They give up because they did not start at the right
place. They did not perform the preparatory work before taking up the breath as
a focus of their attention. However, if your mind has been well prepared by
completing these first two stages, then you will find when you turn to the
breath, you can sustain your attention on it with ease. If you find it difficult
to keep attention on your breath then this is a sign that you rushed the first
two stages. Go back to the preliminary exercises! Careful patience is the
fastest way.
When you focus on the breath,
you focus on the experience of the breath happening now. You experience
"that which tells you what the breath is doing", whether it is going
in or out or in between. Some teachers say to watch the breath at the tip of
the nose, some say to watch it at the abdomen and some say to move it here and
then move it there. I have found through experience that it does not matter
where you watch the breath. In fact, it is best not to locate the breath
anywhere! If you locate the breath at the tip of your nose, then it becomes
nose awareness, not breath awareness; and if you locate it at your abdomen,
then it becomes abdomen awareness. Just ask yourself the question right now
"Am I breathing in or am I breathing out?" How do you know? There!
That experience which tells you what the breath is doing, that is what you focus
on in breath meditation. Let go of concern about where this experience is
located; just focus on the experience itself.
A common hindrance at this stage
is the tendency to control the breathing, and this makes the breathing
uncomfortable. To overcome this hindrance, imagine that you are just a
passenger in a car looking through the window at your breath. You are not the
driver, nor a "back seat driver", so stop giving orders, let go and
enjoy the ride. Let the breath do the breathing while you simply watch without
interfering.
When you know the breath is
going in, or the breath is going out, for say one hundred breaths in a row, not
missing one, then you have achieved what I call the third stage of this
meditation, sustained attention on the breath. This again is more
peaceful and joyful than the previous stage. To go deeper, you now aim for full
sustained attention on the breath.
This fourth stage, or full
sustained attention on the breath, occurs when one's attention expands
to take in every single moment of the breath. You know the in-breath at the
very first moment, when the first sensation of in-breathing arises. Then you
observe those sensations develop gradually through the whole course of one
in-breath, not missing even a moment of the in-breath. When that in-breath
finishes, you know that moment, you see in your mind that last movement of the
in-breath. You then see the next moment as a pause between breaths, and then
many more pauses until the out-breath begins. You see the first moment of the
out-breath and each subsequent sensation as the out-breath evolves, until the
out-breath disappears when its function is complete. All this is done in
silence and just in the present moment.
You experience every part of
each in-breath and out-breath, continuously for many hundred breaths in a row.
This is why this stage is called "FULL sustained attention on the breath'.
You cannot reach this stage through force, through holding or gripping. You can
only attain this degree of stillness by letting go of everything in the entire
universe, except for this momentary experience of breath happening silently
now. "You" don't reach this stage; the mind reaches this stage. The
mind does the work itself. The mind recognizes this stage to be a very peaceful
and pleasant abiding, just being alone with the breath. This is where the
"doer", the major part of one's ego, starts to disappear.
You will find that progress
happens effortlessly at this stage of the meditation. You just have to get out
of the way, let go, and watch it all happen. The mind will automatically
incline, if you only let it, towards this very simple, peaceful and delicious
unity of being alone with one thing, just being with the breath in each and
every moment. This is the unity of mind, the unity in the moment, the unity in
stillness.
The fourth stage is what I call
the "springboard" of meditation, because from here one can dive into
the blissful states. When you simply maintain this unity of consciousness, by
not interfering, the breath will begin to disappear. The breath appears to fade
away as the mind focuses instead on what is at the centre of the experience of
breath, which is the awesome peace, freedom and bliss.
At this stage I use the term
"the beautiful breath". Here the mind recognizes that this peaceful
breath is extraordinarily beautiful. You are aware of this beautiful breath
continuously, moment after moment, with no break in the chain of experience.
You are only aware of the beautiful breath, without effort, and for a very long
time.
Now you let the breath disappear
and all that is left is "the beautiful". Disembodied beauty becomes
the sole object of the mind. The mind is now taking its own object. You are now
not aware at all of breath, body, thought sound or the world outside. All that
you are aware of is beauty, peace, bliss, light or whatever your perception
will later call it. You are experiencing only beauty, with nothing being
beautiful, continuously, effortlessly. You have long ago let go of chatter, let
go of descriptions and assessments. Here, the mind is that still that you can
not say anything.
You are just experiencing the
first flowering of bliss in the mind. That bliss will develop, grow, become
very firm and strong. Thus you enter into those states of meditation called
Jhāna. But that is for Part 3 of this booklet! [^]
Part 3
"Do absolutely nothing and
see how smooth and beautiful and timeless the breath can appear."
Parts 1 and 2 describe the
first four stages (as they are called here) of meditation. These are:
- Present moment awareness;
- Silent awareness of the present moment;
- Silent present moment awareness of the breath; and
- Full sustained attention on the breath.
Each of these stages needs to be
well developed before going in to the next stage. When one rushes
through these "stages of letting go", then the higher stages will be
unreachable. It is like constructing a tall building with inadequate
foundations. The first storey is built quickly and so is the second and third
storey. When the fourth storey is added, though, the structure begins to wobble
a bit. Then when they try to add a fifth storey, it all comes tumbling down. So
please take a lot of time on these four initial stages, making them all firm and
stable, before proceeding on to the fifth stage. You should be able to maintain
the fourth stage, "full sustained attention on the breath", aware of
every moment of the breath without a single break, for two or three hundred
breaths in succession with ease. I am not saying to count the breaths during
this stage, but I am giving an indication of the sort of time interval that one
should remain with stage four before proceeding further. In meditation,
patience is the fastest way!
The fifth stage is called "full
sustained attention on the beautiful breath". Often, this stage
flows on naturally, seamlessly, from the previous stage. As one's full
attention rests easily and continuously on the experience of breath, with
nothing interrupting the even flow of awareness, the breath calms down. It
changes from a coarse, ordinary breath, to a very smooth and peaceful
"beautiful breath". The mind recognizes this beautiful breath and
delights in it. The mind experiences a deepening of contentment. It is happy
just to be there watching this beautiful breath. The mind does not need to be
forced. It stays with the beautiful breath by itself. "You" don't do
anything. If you try and do something at this stage, you disturb the whole
process, the beauty is lost and, like landing on a snake's head in the game of
snakes and ladders, you go back many squares. The "doer" has to
disappear from this stage of the meditation on, with just the
"knower" passively observing.
A helpful trick to achieve this
stage is to break the inner silence just once and gently think to yourself:
"Calm!". That's all. At this stage of the meditation, the mind is
usually so sensitive that just a little nudge like this causes the mind to
follow the instruction obediently. The breath calms down and the beautiful
breath emerges.
When you are passively observing
just the beautiful breath in the moment, the perception of "in"
(breath) or "out" (breath), or beginning or middle or end of a
breath, should all be allowed to disappear. All that is known is this experience
of the beautiful breath happening now. The mind is not concerned with what part
of the breath cycle this is in, nor on what part of the body this is occurring.
Here we are simplifying the object of meditation, the experience of breath in
the moment, stripping away all unnecessary details, moving beyond the duality
of "in" and "out", and just being aware of a beautiful
breath which appears smooth and continuous, hardly changing at all.
Do absolutely nothing and see
how smooth and beautiful and timeless the breath can appear. See how calm you
can allow it to be. Take time to savour the sweetness of the beautiful breath,
ever calmer, ever sweeter.
Now the breath will disappear,
not when "you" want it to but when there is enough calm, leaving only
"the beautiful". A simile from English literature might help. In
Lewis Carrol's "Alice in Wonderland", Alice and the Red Queen saw a
vision of a smiling Cheshire cat appear in the sky. As they watched, first the
cat's tail disappeared, then its paws followed by the rest of its legs. Soon
the Cheshire cat's torso completely vanished leaving only the cat's head, still
with a smile. Then the head started to fade into nothing, from the ears and
whiskers inwards, and soon the smiling cat's head had completely disappeared --
except for the smile which still remained in the sky! This was a smile without
any lips to do the smiling, but a visible smile nevertheless. This is an
accurate analogy for the process of letting go happening at this point in
meditation. The cat with a smile on her face stands for the beautiful breath.
The cat disappearing represents the breath disappearing and the disembodied
smile still visible in the sky stands for the pure mental object
"beauty" clearly visible in the mind.
This pure mental object is
called a Nimitta. "Nimitta" means "a sign", here a
mental sign. This is a real object in the landscape of the mind (citta)
and when it appears for the first time it is extremely strange. One simply has
not experienced anything like it before. Nevertheless, the mental activity
called "perception" searches through its memory bank of life
experiences for something even a little bit similar in order to supply a
description to the mind. For most meditators, this "disembodied
beauty", this mental joy, is perceived as a beautiful light. It is not a
light. The eyes are closed and the sight consciousness has long been turned
off. It is the mind consciousness freed for the first time from the world of
the five senses. It is like the full moon, here standing for the radiant mind,
coming out from behind the clouds, here standing for the world of the five
senses. It is the mind manifesting, not a light, but for most it appears like a
light, it is perceived as a light, because this imperfect description is the
best that perception can offer.
For other meditators, perception
chooses to describe this first appearance of mind in terms of physical
sensation, such as intense tranquillity or ecstasy. Again, the body
consciousness (that which experiences pleasure and pain, heat and cold, and so
on) has long since closed down and this is not a physical feeling. It is just
"perceived" as similar to pleasure. Some see a white light, some a
gold star, some a blue pearl…the important fact to know is that they are all
describing the same phenomena. They all experience the same pure mental object
and these different details are added by their different perceptions.
You can recognize a nimitta by
the following 6 features:
1) It appears only after the 5th stage of the meditation,
after the meditator has been with the beautiful breath for a long time;
2) It appears when the breath disappears;
3) It only comes with the external five senses of sight, hearing, smell, taste
and touch are completely absent;
4) It manifests only in the silent mind, when descriptive thoughts (inner
speech) are totally absent;
5) It is strange but powerfully attractive; and
6) It is a beautifully simple object.
I mention these features so that
you may distinguish real nimittas from imaginary ones.
The sixth stage, then, is called
"experiencing the beautiful nimitta". It is achieved
when one lets go of the body, thought, and the five senses (including the
awareness of the breath) so completely that only the beautiful nimitta remains.
Sometimes when the nimitta first
arises it may appear "dull". In this case, one should go immediately
back to the previous stage of the meditation, continuous silent awareness of
the beautiful breath. One has moved to the nimitta too soon. Sometimes the
nimitta is bright but unstable, flashing on and off like a lighthouse beacon
and then disappearing. Again this shows that you have left the beautiful breath
too early. One must be able to sustain one's attention on the beautiful breath
with ease for a long, long time before the mind is capable of maintaining clear
attention on the far more subtle nimitta. So train the mind on the beautiful
breath, train it patiently and diligently, then when it is time to go on to the
nimitta, it is bright, stable and easy to sustain.
The main reason why the nimitta
can appear dull is that the depth of contentment is too shallow. You are still
"wanting" something. Usually, you are wanting the bright nimitta or
you are wanting Jhāna. Remember, and this is important, Jhānas are states of
letting go, incredibly deep states of contentment. So give away the hungry
mind, develop contentment on the beautiful breath and the nimitta and Jhāna
will happen by themselves.
The main reason why the nimitta
is unstable is because the "doer" just will not stop interfering. The
"doer" is the controller, the back seat driver, always getting
involved where it does not belong and messing everything up. This meditation is
a natural process of coming to rest and it requires "you" to get out
of the way completely. Deep meditation only occurs when you really let go, and
this means REALLY LET GO to the point that the process becomes
inaccessible to the "doer".
A skilful means to achieve such
profound letting go is to deliberately offer the gift of confidence to the
nimitta. Interrupt the silence just for a moment, so so gently, and whisper as
it were inside your mind that you give complete trust to the nimitta, so that
the "doer" can relinquish all control and just disappear. The mind,
represented here by the nimitta before you, will then take over the process as
you watch it all happen.
You do not need to do anything
here because the intense beauty of the nimitta is more than capable of holding
the attention without your assistance. Be careful, here, not to go assessing.
Questions such as "What is this?", "Is this Jhāna?",
"What should I do next?", and so on are all the work of "the
doer" trying to get involved again. This is disturbing the process. You
may assess everything once the journey is over. A good scientist only assesses
the experiment at the end, when all the data are in. So now, do not assess or
try to work it all out. There is no need to pay attention to the edge of the
nimitta "Is it round or oval?", "Is the edge clear or
fuzzy?". This is all unnecessary and just leads to more diversity, more
duality of "inside" and "outside", and more disturbance.
Let the mind incline where it
wants, which is usually to the centre of the nimitta. The centre is where the
most beautiful part lies, where the light is most brilliant and pure. Let go
and just enjoy the ride as the attention gets drawn into the centre and falls
right inside, or as the light expands all around enveloping you totally. This
is, in fact, one and the same experience perceived from different perspectives.
Let the mind merge in the bliss. Let the seventh stage of this path of
meditation, First Jhāna, occur.
There are two common obstacles
at the door into Jhāna: exhilaration and fear. Exhilaration is becoming
excited. If, at this point, the mind thinks "Wow, this is it!" then
the Jhāna is most unlikely to happen. This "Wow" response needs to be
subdued in favour of absolute passivity. You can leave all the "Wows"
until after emerging from the Jhāna, where they properly belong. The more
likely obstacle, though, is fear. Fear arises at the recognition of the sheer
power and bliss of the Jhāna, or else at the recognition that to go fully
inside the Jhāna, something must be left behind -- You! The "doer" is
silent before Jhāna but still there. Inside Jhāna, the "doer" is
completely gone. The "knower" is still functioning, you are fully
aware, but all the controls are now beyond reach. You cannot even form a single
thought, let alone make a decision. The will is frozen, and this can appear
scary to the beginner. Never before in you whole life have you ever experienced
being so stripped of all control yet so fully awake. The fear is the fear of
surrendering something so essentially personal as the will to do.
This fear can be overcome
through confidence in the Buddha's Teachings together with the enticing bliss
just ahead that one can see as the reward. The Lord Buddha often said that this
bliss of Jhāna "should not be feared but should be followed, developed and
practised often" (Latukikopama Sutta, Majjhima Nikāya). So before
fear arises, offer your full confidence to that bliss and maintain faith in the
Lord Buddha's Teachings and the example of the Noble Disciples. Trust the
Dhamma and let the Jhāna warmly embrace you for an effortless, body-less and
ego-less, blissful experience that will be the most profound of your life. Have
the courage to fully relinquish control for a while and experience all this for
yourself.
If it is a Jhāna it will last a
long time. It does not deserve to be called Jhāna if it lasts only a few
minutes. Usually, the higher Jhānas persist for many hours. Once inside, there
is no choice. You will emerge from the Jhāna only when the mind is ready to
come out, when the "fuel" of relinquishment that was built up before
is all used up. These are such still and satisfying states of consciousness
that their very nature is to persist for a very long time. Another feature of
Jhāna is that it occurs only after the nimitta is discerned as described above.
Furthermore, you should know that while in any Jhāna it is impossible to
experience the body (e.g. physical pain), hear a sound from outside or produce
any thought, not even "good" thoughts. There is just a clear singleness
of perception, an experience of non-dualistic bliss which continues unchanging
for a very long time. This is not a trance, but a state of heightened
awareness. This is said so that you may know for yourself whether what you take
to be a Jhāna is real or imaginary.
There is much more to
meditation, but here only the basic method has been described using seven
stages culminating with the First Jhāna. Much more could be said about the
"five hindrances" and how they are overcome, about the meaning of
mindfulness and how it is used, about the Four Satipatthāna and the Four
Roads to Success (Iddhipāda) and the Five Controlling Faculties (Indriya)
and, of course, about the higher Jhānas. All these concern this practice of
meditation but must be left for another occasion.
For those who are misled to
conceive of all this as "just Samatha practice" without regard
to Insight (Vipassanā), please know that this is neither Vipassanā
nor Samatha. It is called "Bhāvanā", the method taught
by the Lord Buddha and repeated in the Forest Tradition of N.E. Thailand of
which my teacher, Ven. Ajahn Chah, was a part. Ajahn Chah often said that Samatha
and Vipassanā can not be separated, nor can the pair be developed apart
from Right View, Right Thought, Right Moral Conduct and so forth. Indeed, to
make progress on the above seven stages, the meditator needs an understanding
and acceptance of the Lord Buddha's Teachings and one's precepts must be pure.
Insight will be needed to achieve each of these stages, that is insight into the
meaning of "letting go". The further one develops these stages, the
more profound will be the insight, and if you reach as far as Jhāna then it
will change your whole understanding. As it were, Insight dances around Jhāna
and Jhāna dances around Insight. This is the Path to Nibbāna, for the
Lord Buddha said, "for one who indulges in Jhāna, four results are to be
expected: Stream Winner, Once Returner, Non Returner or Arahant" (Pāsādika
Sutta, Dīgha Nikāya). [^]
See: Vietnamese
version (Căn Bản Pháp Hành Thiền),
translated by Thien-Nhut & Binh Anson